Being Jeanne...

I had my mammogram on 11/11. In years past, there have been some abnormal pictures, and I always had to go back and have my left breast reimaged and an ultrasound. Well, not last year. Last year they didn't see it. The problem area has always been in the inner quadrant. This year....it's on the outer. I have no idea what this means, but I must wait nearly a month before getting that second scan and ultrasound. I'm hoping my luck hasn't run out.   December 15th is when I go back. It was their first available slot. I have my annual doctor's appointment and an endocrine checkup on the 13th, which has been set for the past 3 months. I have time off available for that appointment, but not for the 15th. Not that is the most important thing about all this. Money means nothing if you aren't healthy. Well...I mean, you need money to pay for healthcare. It sucks there is no universal health care here in the United States. Rambling...I am worried. I don't know why.   A...

We are vaccinated, boosted as much as we can and the post COVID fatigue is still hanging around. We are doing much better though. We are back to meal planning, cooking, and household chores.  We are also recommitted to making sure our health is our top priority. I recently had an endocrinology appointment and I'm doing great. My labs were mostly good. A little too much on my thyroid medicine so we are reducing that to a third of what I'm taking.  My main issue is that vertigo is making walking a struggle at times. If I'm walking down the hallway at school and glance down another hallway and look forward, I get dizzy 🥴 NO FUN! One day at a time, right? 

I have dodged getting COVID until this past week. Thank goodness I was vaccinated and boosted. I honestly feel that kept me from having compromised lungs. Don't get me wrong, it sucks. I had a fever for four days, then the congestion hit. But, while I am coughing and sneezing still, everything is productive, and it's not settling into my lungs. I also finally tested negative on Monday. The fatigue hitting hard is real! Last night, I had to call rescue for Jerry. Because we have been feeling cruddy, we weren't eating right or taking our medicines. I should say that some of us weren't....not naming names, but it was Jerry. His body went into diabetic ketoacidosis, and he is on a ventilator in the hospital's ICU. Scary shit!! I stayed away from the hospital so I could continue to rest up and get better. He is sedated and wouldn't know I was there, but that doesn't mean I don't feel incredibly guilty. I contacted the nurses, and he is improving, although it ...

Sometimes, no, most times you need to be a super sleuth regarding your health. My doctor kept talking about a medication that would be out in 6 months. False... It's it now. Also she has problems ordering medication and ended up ordering a generic brand that didn't work for me. Needless to say, I sent three messages via the patient portal and waiting on replies about changing to this new medication, and fixing the prescription that she put in while I was in the office. 

I have to get up early tomorrow for a blood work for my endocrinologist appointment next week. I have a feeling that my TSH is way off and frankly I'm getting tired of feeling like crap.  The only thing I enjoy right now is sitting and watching TV with Jerry. He's had a rough month at work but the other day I turned on Star Trek, The Original Series and we just talked and quizzed each other through the episode, praying of course so we didn't miss anything.  So. Fun!

Four years since my nephrectomy to remove my left kidney. I wish I could say my head is better since removing the cancer but I don't feel it is. Weight issues, thyroid issues, having you walk with a walking stick to keep balance...WTF.  I was so happy when I was losing all the weight, but it wasn't me. It was the cancer. How do I wrap my head around that? 

  I've purchased a walking stick for myself.  I'm loving it in comparison to my Hurrycane.  It gives me the stability I am needing.  I also like that I can rest my hand on the top versus gripping a can handle.   If I get really wild I can extend it and use it as a trekking pole.  So many options. I'm finding that I can walk longer with it as well.  Which is a good thing.  With the cane, my back would get tired but with the walking stick, it isn't happening. Which is a good thing.  

This thing has been my companion for the weekend. I have been feeling very unsteady for awhile and decided it was time to break out the Hurrycane. I hate it and love it at the same time. It definitely gives me some stability while walking though.  I don't know what's going on. If it's a vitamin deficiency, or my Hashimotos flaring? I go for an appointment in June for my 6 month check up.  It seems like ever since my nephrectomy my health is not where it should be. It will be 4 years on May 31st...*sigh* I just want to feel better. 

       Four-day weekend.  Just what I needed.  Work is tough this year.  I'm the only staff interpreter on the campus; we have a revolving door of agency interpreters covering the other two classes.  One of the teachers did give me a great compliment last week, saying that I was a great interpreter and that they loved the fact that I connected to the school on a team basis. But, of course, I do...that's what my job is.  I'm an educational interpreter, so being part of the education team is key.  I get why they said that, though.  The agency interpreters don't have the loyalty that a staff interpreter would.       I am a lapsed Catholic. However, I now see myself as a spiritual being. So why am I mentioning this? Because of Easter?  Yes.  I do believe in the story of Jesus.  But I don't discount other religious figures.  I mean, who am I to judge.  So Easter is a time of renewal, a time of...

Last year's grateful post each day was hard to maintain. I tried. I am grateful for each and every day I'm in alive. I know I need to treat my body better though. I'm not going to make promises I won't keep. This year is about being okay with not being okay. 

 Holy moly, I'm not doing well with this post per day.   I'm off for the rest of the week for Thanksgiving Break.  This time of year is always a little bitter-sweet as I miss my family, both the dead and the living who have abandoned what it means to be family. Jerry and I will cook for us and that's always a great time.  We enjoy cooking together and we've gotten quite good at it, in my opinion.  The menu is: Turkey, dressing, roasted potatoes, carrots, and beans, hopefully, cranberry from Publix if I put in the order and actually get it, and a mini Klondike bar for dessert.   My mouth is drooling as I type this.  So what am I grateful for....Breaks from school, Jerry, Nutmeg, the means to have a nice dinner, we are so fortunate and I know that not everyone is...sometimes I feel guilty...argh...

Yesterday was rough. Feeling so much better. Today I'm going to the district building for contract negotiations. I haven't been the best building two for the union. My heart isn't in it. I guess every little bit helps. I'm grateful for feeling better. I was a little scared. I never felt that way before. Jittery, confused, emotional... Not fun. Drink your water! 

Got my Pixelmas Pixel 6 Pro phone today. It's huge. That's what she said.  I hope a Jerry gets his tomorrow. I had to take the day off as I'm having problems staying hydrated.   

I'm thinking this has become a lost cause. I am truly grateful for so much. I'm very fortunate. Apparently, I need set aside time to reflect each day.  

 I'm grateful for Jerry.  He takes care of me.  It's the little things like making sure my lunch box is clean, and my lunch bag is in the freezer.  

I'm a little stiff from last night's fall but over all doing great. I'm thankful that I had the smarts to "roll" in to the fall. Getting old is a doozie! I want to keep getting older though even at times when I say I just want to sleep forever. FOMO (Fear of missing out) plays a big part. I want to do more. Especially with Jerry. 🥰

I fell earlier today. Came right out of my shoes and the scariest part is I don't know how it happened. I bonked my knees but other than being shaken up I seem to be okay.   Yesterday was great, we saw Hamilton  again.  I'm grateful for shows that make me laugh, cry, and everything in between. I'm also grateful that I didn't think my head when I fell. 

So yeah...I seen to be in a work rut. Life at home is the best, but I'm not enjoying work. The student I'm assigned has an attendance issue so when they aren't here, I have to cover other schedules. I don't care for the classes or the clientele. That's awful to say. But it's the truth. Life is too short to mince words.  Anyway... grateful for 3:35 PM M-F. Time to head home.  

I'm having a hard time right now. I was out for 10 days with an infection in my leg followed by a reaction to Bactrim. Work is bumming me out. I'm alive and Jerry makes me laugh so I'm grateful for him. 

I'm barely hanging on at work. With the vacancies, schedules, and COVID I just want to quit. I'm grateful that I'm alive and that's about as good as it's going to get for now. 

228: Grateful for new shoes.  229: I'm grateful to have a living little family. 

I woke up at 5:30 with the worst cramp in my inner thigh. I thought I was going to have to wake up Jerry, but after about 30 minutes and 24 oz of water I was able to put weight on my leg. It's still sore...so I'm grateful that I am ambulatory.

School has started. COVID it's still a thing. It looks like I might be the only district interpreter at my school after Wednesday. I'm sorry I dropped the ball on my grateful each day posts. I'm working on my work/life balance right now. Last night I went to bed at 6pm and slept until 9:30 this morning. I'm very grateful for my life.. Even though it is a little stressful. 

I just weighed myself. I'm feeling like ...💩 Today I'm grateful for...this opportunity to fix myself? I have no fucking idea right now. 

Oof...I feel defeated when I forget to post every day. What does that say about me? Anyway...I'm grateful for those moments where the world melts away and I can giggle and laugh with no anxiety. 

212: Full day of peopling and mask wearing. It was exhausting. I'm grateful that I made it the full day.  213: I slept 12 hours last night. I'm grateful that I had a good night's sleep. 

I did the laundry all by myself..well...Jerry carried it to the laundry room. I'm grateful that I was able to "flip" the laundry and fold and put it away by myself! 🧺

209: Blood for year scan, check. Got my DTU shirt. I'm grateful for spaghetti night. 🍝 210: I'm grateful for a husband who randomly boils eggs. So yummy! 🥚

207: I'm grateful for life.  208: I'm grateful for days at home. Summer vacation is coming to an end soon. I'm not ready....

Today I'm grateful for do nothing Sundays!

202: Jerry went to work today nso I had the while house to myself. I missed his "noise." I'm grateful for the everyday sounds of living with Jerry. 203: Random contractor calls can throw a link into my routine but thankfully I rolled with it. I'm grateful that some days I'm easy going.  204: I'm thankful that I dona good job of keeping up with my health appointments. Today was an Ultrasound of my kidney and "Martha hole" to make sure things are going well.  205: I'm grateful for online shopping and delivery. Keeps me safe and helps my knee heal. 

Today I'm grateful for pizza delivery. I took a nap and Jerry let me sleep longer than I thought I would do instead of walking me up to cook he ordered pizza. I'm spoiled. 😍

Today, I won. I had to call CVS nexuses I am about to run out of one of my medicines. When I picked it up last month I didn't notice they charged me for 3 months but only handed me one month. After several times of me saying,".. But I paid for 3 months but only got one month." The pharmacist said they would check to see how many boxes were scanned and handed to me and call me back. About 20 minutes later they called and said that I was right and they owed me 2 months off medicine. I'm grateful for technology that tracks exactly what was released all I didn't have to pay out of pocket for medicine. 

Last week we had the plumbing redone in our house. The water pressure is amazing now. We also got the walkway and some landscaping done at the front of the house. I'm grateful for the means we have to do these projects. Did I mention the water pressure? Oh yeah...and the plumber cleaned the rain shower head. SO GOOD! 💧🌧️

 I'm grateful for running water and the ability to use our bathrooms again in the house.  After 9 hours of plumbing work, it was nice to use the facilities in our own home.  Jerry and I went to Firehouse to relieve ourselves at lunch and I popped into the restroom while getting another mammogram picture done of my left breast.  Good news there is nothing has changed since last year so only the annual visit next year! 

Normally, I would break down each day but it's all a blur. Tropical storms, delays in plumbing work, and grief has come to pay me a visit. I blame the "Jeannie shows" I watch... why do people have to die from pancreatitic cancer. FUCK!! Anyway....this is about being grateful so that is my focus. I am grateful for every day I have! Cancer is in remission. I'm obese but I'm alive. I know I need to gety weight down. My TSH is up again..I'm so tired of not feeling good...so tired but I want to be healthy. Grateful for life, no matter how messy. 

188: Tropical Storm Elsa hits....she brought some gloom skies but we were fortunate again. I'm grateful that our little bungalow was safe from the storm. 189: Eye appointment day...wheee! Of course my eyes are dilated and anything bright hurts to look at. I am grateful that I am able to take care of my eyes. I have some occular pressure issues and I make sure to keep my appointments. The dilating sucks though. Heh!

I've had to "people" two times today. Once to get some lab work and the second to pick up some things via Publix curbside pickup and at CVS. At the lab, misty people were masked but they still don't know how to wear it properly. At Publix of course the curbside attendant was fully masked which I appreciate even though we were never within six feet of each other. I'm really ready for COVID to be over. So what am I grateful for today, home. I'm grateful for home. My safe little sanctuary.

Today I'm grateful for fresh sheets! Usually we have maids service on Mondays and they change the bed. The old me would be all "they'll get it next week" but instead I asked Jerry to help and we made the bed. I know I'm incredibly spoiled with maid service... Don't come at me. 

Talk about dropping the ball... 182: Grateful for pajama days. 183: Fridays...very rainy so I made philly cheese steaks. YUM!! I'm grateful for our fa delivered meats. Oh..and the Lawyer's Seasoned Salt kicked it up a notch! 184: Grateful for a partner that helps make decisions. We did laundry in a Saturday so we didn't have to do it on the holiday.  185: I'm grateful for holiday traditions. We spent the afternoon watching 1776 to celebrate Independence Day.  🇺🇲

Today I'm grateful for Jerry. He takes care of me and makes me laugh. I hope he knows how much I love him. I try to make life easier him. I need to take care of myself so I can take care of him. 

I'm grateful for being alive. Feeling a little meh, but I am alive so I have that going for me....

I made a lovely zucchini, yellow squash, tomato, pasta salad. I'm grateful for fresh veggies and trying new recipes. 

I'm grateful that I only have to take care of me. I know that sounds super selfish. I struggle with getting me ready for the world, I can't imagine having little ones that also need assistance. Maybe it is wrong, but it's how I'm feeling today. ⁰

176: Holy house upgrades! Got a new sink and ordered a water softener system that will be installed in two weeks. I'm grateful that we are finally able to have workers in the house to fix things we rigged to work for the past year.  177: Today we had a chopping fest to prepare all the veggies for the week. I'm grateful that we have the means to get fresh farm veggies delivered to our house each week. 

Woo hoo! Spent the morning on the phone ordering a new sink, faucet, and some plumbing work. I'm grateful that we can upgrade and fix things without stressing to much. 

Summer break can sometimes look like I'm wasting it away, but really I'm catching up on rest. I'm grateful for lazy days.   

Had a lovely night away at Jekyll Island. I'm grateful for the sound of the surf rejuvenating my soul. 

 I'm grateful for the opportunity to head to the beach overnight.  I can't wait to hear the waves!!

It's Father's day today. I miss mine. Playing "guys", admitting I took the car or before I had my licence and him calling me Barney Oldfield, sailing, trimming the disco tree, playing video games, the Timex Sinclair, the Mac and "Welcome to Mario" tong game that always popped up even when he didn't start it, going to his school to hang out at football games, watching him lead the band in parades, going to the symphony to hear him play the oboe, sailing, the great Christmas light decoration war at the cottage, watching him help build a house, talking about gadgets, Xena Warrior Princess, the way he always purposefully said the wrong names of tv shows (ex. Slugged by an Angel), Seawart, Thanksgiving dressing.... So many memories. I'm grateful that you were my dad! ♥️

Out and about today. Did a little better. Need to keep moving. Grateful for shopping carts that can aid in balance and steadiness. 

168: I'm grateful for video games. Miitopia on my Nintendo Switch had me amused right now.  169: I'm grateful for naps. Feeling a little meh. 

I'm grateful for pajama days.  

164: I'm exhausted and sore from that little outing. I'm grateful that I'm alive and honestly that is enough some days. 165: OMG home made stew is so yummy. I even added some peas. Lasuer of course. I'm grateful that we are able to cook delicious meals full of food nutrients.  166: I didn't get any sleep last night. Nutmeg kept nagging me to go back to bed when I finally got up after hours of tossing and turning. My throat is raw from post nasal drip. So what am I grateful for on this sleepy, grumpy morning? That it is summer break and I can nap later if I need to although I'm going to try to stay awake so I sleep well tonight. 

Holy outta shape, Batman! Today we headed to Publix Liquor and then the grocery. We didn't need to shop, the point was to get me walking. Walking with a biggy sounds like a good way to ease into being mobile. Did kinda okay at the liquor store but had to sit for a moment before headwind into the grocery store. We picked up a few things, coffee creamer was a must get item. I really thought I would be able to walk the whole store. NOPE! Jerry says I shouldn't best myself up about my lack of stamina bit to work on it. So today I'm grateful that I was able to take a small step to better health. 

160: Jerry was at work today so I had the house to myself. I got Pad Thai from Hawkers. It's hard for him to eat there with the carb count. Honestly, I should be worried about that too. I'm grateful for delivery service to bring me delicious lunch.  161: I'm grateful for sleeping in. I woke up at 12:30 PM. 🛌 162: Friday.... I'm grateful for summer breaks and losing track of days of the week. Although Jerry is still working so there is some sort of schedule. 

I'm grateful for pajama days all alone at home. Doing what I want. Junk food and all. My tummy will pay later but for now...it's happy and full.

Today I'm grateful for tops that aren't black. I don't have many non work clothes so I bought myself a bright blue top and wore the heck out of it today!!

I'm sad. Or something....just kind of meh. I didn't do anything today. Thank goodness for goofy series. I'm rewatching Younger on HULU. I'm grateful for streaming services. 

154: Went to school to sign my paperwork, hand in my key, etc. Got lots of hugs, which are great! I'm grateful for hugs!  155: Last day of school. I'm grateful that we were able to use it guest room as a classroom for the year. It made things easier for both Jerry and me.  156: I'm grateful for lazy mornings. I've been awake for about an hour but am still in bed playing on my phone. Yay!

 152:  Tuesday, and not Monday.  Always so weird after a holiday.  I'm grateful for the last Tuesday of the school year.  153: It's only Wednesday.  Could this week be any slower? Tonight is Spaghetti night....some normalcy that I'm grateful for this week. 

Three years ago today, my left kidney was removed because I had a cancerous tumor inside. I didn't the next week in the hospital recovering and told myself I was going to keep being healthy.  That hasn't happened. Yes, I'm cancer free per my last scan in 2020. But...I'm huge. Morbidly obese. The most I've ever weighed and I feel it. Every day...it's a struggle to move, to walk to stand. I hate it!! I put myself back on LoseIt to keep track of my calories because I know pandemic eating was a little crazy. Despite tracking every bite and I don't think I miss putting things down I'm not losing. My TSH was off but it's been eight weeks since we upped my dosage and I should be feeling better...but I'm not.  I know I need to move around more. But I'm afraid of falling, failing ..of it all.  I'm sad....

150: Feeling like a truck hit me. I'm so out of shape. Grateful to be alive. 151: Theee years since my kidney was removed due to cancer. Feeling super grateful that my cancer was removed and I'm alive. I need to fix this body. 

 Last night we went to Alhambra Dinner Theatre and saw The Music Man.   The food was good, the show was good.  We were unmasked because we are vaccinated. I was anxious...very... Lots of going up and downstairs while we were there and today I'm sore, tired, and just a little out of sorts. I'm grateful that we went though.  It was good to get out of the house and do something normal.  I need to get some stamina back...I'm too sloth-like :(

 147: Grateful to have the whole house to myself for a couple of hours.  Although I was still working.  Meh... 148: I'm kinda in a pissed-off mood.  I am feeling stressed about not letting the veggies go bad before we cook them.   I know that I need to cook more.  Did  I mention I hate being a housewife?  I need to get over this princess attitude and just be a fucking adult!  UGH!! So what am I grateful for today?  Umm....I guess that testing is over and we have a 3 day weekend.   And after that, I only have 4 more work days until Summer Vacation!!!!!

 I woke up at 3am this morning.  I tried to go back to sleep, but the brain zoomies were too strong.  I finally put on my soap (Y&R) and snoozed until around 7.  It's going to be rough later, but right now, I'm feeling okay.  So what am I grateful for on this sleep-deprived day?  I'm grateful that I am working from home. Yes....again.  This has come up many times in my year of gratefulness, but it really is a blessing to not have to get in a car and deal with traffic and people.  Don't get me wrong, I miss my co-workers, and it's quite lonely on some days.  Only six more days, and then it's Summer Vacation! 

Today I'm grateful for my Pair Eyewear glasses. I got 8 new toppers and they are fun!!

 143: Grateful for building legos with my hubby.  Fun stuff.  And we only got frustrated once in the whole build. 144: Ugh..I thought I was caught up, but here I go posting 2 days in one post.  Today I'm grateful for having the means to take care of the house regularly.  Maid service is a luxury that we have, and I'm super grateful every week that they come. 

140: I know it's redundant but I'm grateful to work in a job that has 2 months off.  141: Two weeks from today.. Summer vay-cay. I'm grateful for some yummy Bono's BBQ takeout.  142: if you haven't watched the series Kim's Convenience  you need to check it out. So funny and helps the blues. I'm grateful for the laughs. 

138: I'm grateful for yummy food that I cooked. I took Coconut Aminos, salt, pepper, garlic powder and basted it on chicken leg quarters ( or as I call them. Stupid chicken) and baked it's SOOO yummy with fresh roasted green beans.  139: Today I I told a teacher that I was done being as helpful as I was with the students because it's not my job. I'm an interpreter. I really feel like I have let the student down by being too much for them. So today I'm grateful for the lesson.

I'm not happy right now. I'm angry, and I'm not sure why. I just want to tell at people. But I don't....I know better. I'm grateful that I'm in control. I'm thankful I haven't said or done anything that I would regret. I hope tomorrow is better. 

134: I'm grateful for naps at 3:35 PM  135: I'm grateful for more sleep, apparently I'm super tired.  136: Counting this one, there are only 3 Sundays left in the school year, super grateful for that!

 Google photos started a new feature a few months back where they show you pictures from your past.  Four years ago today, I had a "Porch Pop-up" for my Lularoe business. I was cute and thinner, and I thought happy.  But I think it was that day that I figured out that it wasn't going to be for me.  I think I had a few sales, but nothing, like I thought, should have been happening.  Needless to say, I stuck it out for a few more months, trying to deny the fact that it wasn't fun and it was a whole lot of work. It wasn't until November of that year that I stopped selling. What I didn't know at the time was that the reason I was losing so much weight and loving my new body in these, what I thought were cute outfits, was that I had cancer.  Cancer was the reason for my weight loss.  So what am I thankful/grateful for on reflecting on this memory?  That I  took a chance.  I stepped out of my comfort zone to try something.  I ...

131: I'm grateful for no one giving me crap for going to bed at 8pm.  132: I'm grateful for the knowledge that summer vacation is less than a month away. 🌞

128: Grateful for vaccines and my confidence level. Went into two stores! 129: Grateful for Jerry. 130: Grateful for delivery services. Groceries are done. Amazon has enough food for Nutmeg for a couple of months.  (Oops 😳)

 I'm grateful I have Jerry to talk to about "stuff".   It seems like everyone else has put me on the backburner.  Okay..maybe not but it's how I feel.

124: I'm grateful for yummy green beans from our local farms.  125: I'm grateful for "permission" to finish a series without Jerry. The Expanse season 5 was good! 126: Grateful for my job and the ability to do some personal development. I learned how to sign Immune system, pathogens...also watched Atomic Hands on how the COVID vaccines work.

I'm grateful for having fun at work. The cadets had an assignment to create a god or goddess so I joined the fun and did the assignment as well. Was a nice little distraction.. 

Today was an odd day. Jerry has a low blood sugar incident. Like no other one. After he was back up to normal he was exhausted and napped most of the day. He did rude with me to CVS and Jersey Mike's to pick up RXs and lunch. I'm proud of myself, I went into the restaurant all alone to pick up our order. Not one but of anxiety. Okay, maybe after I did it... But still, I did it. I need to keep some things on hand for those emergency low sugar episodes, I'm grateful for my "take over, get him better" more. I haven't seen that side of me in awhile. I grateful he is okay now too. 

120: I napped for 3 hours after work. Can you even call that a nap or is it just sleeping? I'm grateful that I can do that.  121: I'm grateful for a partner who helps me do take, even when I don't want to do them. Today we roasted corn, carrots, and sweet potatoes. Veggies prep palooza! 

I'm tired. It's Friday Eve, and NFL Draft night. Jerry is excited about watching the draft. I'm excited about the wings he is cooking me. 😂 Today, I'm grateful for knowing that after tomorrow it will be the weekend. I don't want to be a slug but I want to be a slug. Sleep..I love sleep. 

 117: Less than 30 days left in the school year, and I'm looking forward to having a couple of months off.  I'm sure in August we will be back in the buildings full time.  I'm not looking forward to that, but I know what I need to do to keep myself safe.  So, what am I grateful for on day 117?  I'm grateful for Vegging out with Jerry watching some Below Deck Sailing Edition.  It's a guilty pleasure, and once again, it proves to be entertaining for us. 118: It's spaghetti night.  A constant in our routines.  It gives me joy to eat some yummy spaghetti that we prepare together.  It also is a 'no brainer" for weekly meal planning, which I love. So today, I'm grateful for spaghetti night!

 115:  We made roasted carrots, and they were amazing!  I'm grateful for veggies.  I need more of them in my diet.  I know that.  I need to get past this lazy person crap and just cook them all up and eat them. 116:  I'm grateful for cat sighs.  Nutmeg came into the "classroom" today and got up on the bed.  Nestled up on a pillow and started settling in for a nap.  She did the cutest *sigh* before she finally settled in and it was adorable.  

Why do I feel responsible when the UberEats people or the restaurant people don't have the order right? What kind of f***** up self-esteem crap is that anyway.... This blog post is supposed to be about being grateful which is supposed to help me be in the moment. Be present. Be now. So what can I possibly be grateful for? In this moment, I guess that there are always reminders that everything in life goes doesn't go smoothly and you have to learn how to cope. So I'm grateful for the lesson.

 I'm grateful for my hairdresser, Mavity.  I can walk in and say "I hate my hair!" She doesn't get offended and I leave with something that is cute and less dowdy.  

 111: Not a good day.  Work is wearing on me.  I'm feeling confined even though I really don't want to go anywhere.  I'm feeling worn out as well.  So what do I have to be grateful for.  I am grateful for having these feelings.  It's okay not to be okay.  It's the sad days that balance out the joy that comes from most days.   112:  I'm still feeling "meh."  A co-worker's mother passed away yesterday.  She had been battling Congestive Heart Failure for a while now.  I feel for my co-worker.  Losing a parent is hard.  That Mother/Daughter relationship is a special bond (well, for me it was) and not having mom around can be rough.  I'm grateful to have gone through that experience though.  Jerry and I lost all our parents within 18 months.  One after another.  I don't know how we did it, but we did.  We have use some dark humor to ease some of the pain.  Lots of "your momma" jokes ...

 109: I'm grateful for maid service.  I know I have said that before but I really am not a fan of cleaning and the ability to have someone else do it is a nice treat.  And...we are helping by employing them. Right? 110:  I woke up to breakfast made by my cutie pie husband.  I'm grateful for a morning person husband.  I'm so not a morning person so doing anything in the morning is a chore. I was treated with his recipe of roasted breakfast potatoes, eggs over easy, and a couple of sausage links. YUM!

106: I'm grateful for Friday nights and knowing I don't have to go to work for 2 days.  107: I'm grateful for restaurants that have gluten free bread for yummy sandwiches. I got a Cuban Sandwich from Larry's Giant Dubs and it was delish! 108: I'm super grateful that I have the sleeping superpower and didn't get out of bed until 11am. It's rainy and people are gloomy in the house, but I'm having a good day. Watched a lot of One Tree Hill. 

Ugh. 103: I'm grateful for s "Souper" simple taco soup! So yummy and easy to make.  104: I'm grateful for testing days when I'm feeling meh and don't have to be on camera for 6 hours a day. ( Should be 7 but some teachers don't do meeting for their class. ) 105: I never thought I would say this but I'm grateful for cauliflower pizza crust. We got pizza from Al's pizza and it was so  good. Well be ordering from them again. 

I'm grateful for a supportive partner. Tonight the chicken was dry, but not one complaint. Even when I complained, he still said, "It's good." it wasn't good, it was dry....very dry. We had roasted potatoes, carrots and Brussel sprouts to go along with my dry chicken which made up for a lot. 

I'm grateful for fresh veggies. I roasted some green beans for lunch today and they were so yummy! Who ever would have thought I'd be roasting veggies for lunch?!? 

I'm grateful for science! Today we are two weeks since our second dose of the Pfizer. Fully activated!! Woo hoo 🕺💃🎉 We went out and did some errands. UPS to drop off Nespresso pods to be recycled,  Goodwill to drop off to huge bags full of clothes, and then just drove around about with the moon roof open for some vitamin d. We even went inside  Jersey Mike's to order our lunch to go. It was a good day. 

Today I'm grateful for taking a nap right after dinner. 2 hours of food coma, shake the week off, bliss!

Today I'm grateful for Kodiak Pancake cups (gluten free). A quick a delicious breakfast, I'm my opinion.

 96: Horrible headache when going to make dinner.  The chopped sweet potato bag wasn't sealed and potato bits when flying everywhere.  What was left smelled off.  Jerry jumped in to help as I was having a horrible headache and took over the veggies for dinner.  We have a lovely pork tenderloin with his potato and carrot roasted yumminess.  I'm grateful that he always has my back. 97:  We are testing this week at school.  So for the virtual students and me it's a lot of independent work and no live meetings.  I'm happy I'm home though.  I am still not feeling 100%.  I don't know if it's a sinus, or ear infection, or just allergies.  Either way, I'm grateful for sitting in my little faux classroom today. 

 94: I'm grateful for sleeping in. I woke up at 10:30, and it was great!  I love the weekends that I actually do that. 95: It's Monday, and honestly, I'm feeling meh.  But, it's also maid day.  I'm grateful that we have maid service, even if it isn't always convenient for them to be here.

I woke up to breakfast cooked by my darling husband. Roasted potatoes, eggs with spinach and cheese, and kielbasa sausage...I'm so lucky. Today I'm grateful for those little things (not so little really) that he does out of love. 

I napped today. I was super sleepy around 2pm so I put on Star Wars: A New Hope and was asleep before Luke made his appearance. I'm grateful for afternoon naps!

89: Lucked out of cooking and got some fajita nachos. I'm grateful for food delivery services. 90: We were out of ground beef so i used Instacart and got some groceries. I don't miss shopping. Again, grateful for shopping/delivery services. 91: Grateful for a doctor that sometimes actually listens to me. My TSH was 13.19 so we are going to try a Tirosint Solution @ 200 mcg. 

Sweet potatoes!! That's what I'm grateful for today. They are yummy and they don't make my tummy mad. 

Today I'm grateful for Tylenol. My arm is a little sore and thankfully Tylenol helps. Science is truly amazing!

I'm grateful for science! We got our 2nd dose of the Pfizer COVID vaccine today. In two weeks we will be activated and can get a little bit of relief. We will still continue to mask for both our health and the health of our friends and neighbors. 

 Holy cow, I'm slippin'! Day 83  I'm grateful for spaghetti night.  I didn't feel like cooking but most Wednesdays we cook spaghetti.  It's quick and easy. Don't forget that it is so delicious!  Yum, spaghetti!! Day 84 I'm grateful for technology.  We ordered these replacement wands for our blinds that make them automated.  It's so cool.  And Jerry crawled behind the TV and installed one on the blinds there.  That blind hasn't been open in decades.  I'm loving the natural light in the house and I can get it with one push of a button. Day 85 I love Fridays!  I'm grateful for drinking water because tomorrow I get my 2nd COVID-19 Vaccine shot.  I'm a little nervous about the side effects but I've heard that super hydrating helps so I'm going to start on my water increase intake later today.  

 It's Tuesday.  I need to change my outlook on Tuesdays.  I tend to be "meh" on Tuesdays. So what could I be grateful for this Tuesday?  The fact that I work from home and didn't have to commute far.  I love it.  While I miss the students and my co-workers. I love that I can do things right up until 8:04, walk to the "classroom" and power up the computer, and be set for the day by 8:05.  

 So I seem to be skipping days again.  You'd think this would be a habit by now. Day 80 I love the weekends and Jerry and I have been having a blast lately on the weekend.  No, we aren't going out. No, we aren't visiting with people.  We are just having fun together and laughing a lot.  So for day 80, I'm grateful for the ability to see the humor in everything.   Day 81 I'm very fortunate that we have the means to get our house cleaned once a week.  It started when I had my kidney removed and we love it. We are both a little weak in the cleaning department. Ok..I am.  Jerry rocks it out.  Anyway, I'm grateful for our once-a-week cleanings.

I had lab work today. I arrived and as I was waiting I noticed everyone had papers. Of course they did because you need lab orders! Miffed, I drove home and tried to book another appointment. None!! I had decided that I was going to go Monday and wait for a time slot. I them turned to Jerry and asked his advice. He said he'd go back since I was already fasting. Ugh....I went back and it was empty!!! I was in and out in 30 minutes. So today, I'm grateful for a loving partner who knows me and I'm also grateful for the luck I had today getting my land work done quickly. 

Day 77 My toes is better.  I wore shoes to give it support vs slipper.  That helped a lot.  Today I'm grateful for quick and easy dinners.  We had a variation of the TikTok pasta.  Used 2 qt of cherry tomatoes, Boursin Garlic cheese, and penne pasta.  Was yummy and super easy to make.  Also means I didn't have to stand on my toe too long. Day 78 FRIYAY!!  I'm working for the weekends!  Thankfully, Monday is a teacher planning day which means I don't have to log into work.  NICE!  So grateful.....yeah..I am truly blessed and I'm aware but today I'm focused my gratefulness on my partner.  He makes me laugh.  We spent the morning laughing together over breakfast.  Sure..we have our moments of "Ugh" but don't we all?  We have less of those than we do of just giggling at things. <3 

My toe hurts... My knee hurts from favoring my toe. My tummy hurts. Wah! Wah! Wah! So what am I grateful for today. A student told me they loved me today. I love my job and they depend on me too much and honestly I cross that line more often than I should but they don't get the support they need from thier teachers... So.....ugh...ethics. it's not like I'm giving answers away, just guiding them on how to write a sentence. Middle school and they struggle. Online school can be rough. Educational interpreting is so...fuzzy... In the "this is where the line is drawn" that when I get an "I love you", I'm cherishing it!

 I'm grateful to have traveled another year around the sun.  I know that life is gift and is not always promised and birthdays are a great reminder!!

 Umm...wow.  Spring break hit and I forgot about everything. Which was nice.  Apparently, I needed to not think about things.  Was a good break, at home of course.  We got our 1st dose of the Pzier Vaccine on Saturday the 6th.  No real side effects.  Yes, my arm was sore for about 3 days.  The rest of the week was spent watching TV, being silly with Jerry, and playing with Nutmeg.  A win in my book.   I'm grateful that I have a job that gives me a full week off to decompress.  We also have a mini break coming up for Easter.  Yay!!

You know what is great? Not worrying about things. We took my car in to the shop on Saturday because all kinds of warning lights were coming up. They days they couldn't get to it until Monday. I'm on sitting break so when I got the text message my car was ready, for a moment I had forgotten it was getting worked on. No stress for this girly on vay-cay. So I'm grateful for those moments of bliss. 

 Day 65 WOW!! What a day.  I'm grateful for science and a President who gets it.  We got our COVID vaccine 1st shots today.   Day 66 I'm grateful for gaming.  It's a great escape and today I finished Star Wars Jedi the Fallen Order.  Fun!!

What a beautiful morning! I got up and ready and drove to the school to do some paperwork that had to be signed "in person." I turned on 80s on 8 on my Sirius XM radio and sang along as I drove my warning light laden car. Fun!  So today I'm grateful to be alive and fairly healthy. Health...oof...I'm far from healthy but today I'm going to say "healthy for me". Ya know...screw it. I'm freaking happy to be alive today!!!

 Today I'm grateful that I have the patience to deal with crises.  Okay, not all the time.  But today I didn't panic.  I got in my car and a whole lot of warning lights came on which tells me that the electrical system is buggy.  I drove anyway.  I'll be fine..right?  *shrug*  I decided that it was probably just a glitch and I needed to do some errands. I have to do another one tomorrow but the car is going back into the shop Saturday.  I was just there a month ago. *sigh*   So grateful for car troubles....no...again...grateful for staying calm among the chaos that seems to be my life with my car lately.

Day 61 Grateful for video games. They are fun, and challenge my eye hand motor skills. Also I'm currently playing Star Wars Jedi Fallen Order so.... Star Wars!! Day 62 I was home alone today. I don't care for the quiet. I'm better than I used to be. So...yay for personal growth. So what am thankful for? People coming home! And by people, I mean Jerry!

Hmm...I thought I was consistently posting and then I miss a day. So for day 59...I'm grateful for washing machines. I can't even imagine doing laundry by hand.  So for day 60, I'm grateful for dryers. Not only are they awesome for drying wet clothes, the are wonderful at heading up shirts and making them cozy. 

Saturday has become my favorite day of the week. Yes, I'm home all the time but on Saturday I can sleep in and do what I want. Work has been becoming a bit much. Sitting with a camera on constantly takes a toll. Anyway...back to Saturdays. A full day of just being me. Hanging out with Jerry and Nutmeg. It's the best! So that's my official grateful thing for today. ☺️

I'm not feeling happy today. I just want to sleep. So today I'm grateful that my partner supports my decision to head to bed at 7pm. I sad a nap but it will probably be all night. 

I'm grateful for fish and tater tots!! One of my favorite quick meals. I'm that kid that loved fish sticks, so this is right up my alley. 

Hmmm....grateful...grateful...so much to be grateful for but specifically today?  My life. I'm not talking about the heart beating, blood rushing through vessels, breathing kind of life, I'm talking about my past experiences. I have had so many. Today someone on TikTok posted a "Tell me you were in marching band, with out telling me you were in marching band..." Of course I did a duet. It got me thinking about all the wonderful people and experiences that I had just because I was in Marching band. In high school we travelled to Disney World. In college...well....SO many experiences. I wouldn't trade those memories and experiences at all. Even the hard/rough/sad ones.  So yeah, I'm grateful for marching band and all it's done in shaping the person that I am.   

Day 52: I'm grateful that I can sleep in until noon. No judgement from Jerry, just peaceful sleep. Day 53: I'm grateful for yummy Everything Bagel seasoning. A new discovery for me and so young on eggs, chicken...Can't wait to try it other places. Day 54: I'm grateful I'm still working from home. I'm feeling anxious about COVID right now. More people I know are getting sick. I was feeling pretty lucky that it was away from my bubbles of people. Also, in having insomnia as I post at 3am... So getting up at the last minute to work is a bonus!!

This morning was lazy and wonderful. Jerry went and got a haircut, double masked of course. Then he wanted to try a reverse omelette that he has seen on TikTok. So after he made his and having a taste, I made my own. I mentioned the veggies from local farms, I forgot to say we also get our eggs. Getting eggs delivered each week has been the best. The pandemic has been hard and Local Fare Jax has been a blessing. I'm grateful for the fresh goodies we get each week. 

Today I'm grateful for potato salad. Really?? Potato salad?  Yes. Jerry makes some amazing potato salad and we have been fortunate to find a local farm co-op that delivers to our porch. So the produce is fresh and yummy! jerry uses red potatoes in his recipe and we have plenty right now. Olso while really I'm grateful for our farm to porch service, without them...I couldn't have Jerry's super yummy potato salad. 

Way to drop the ball there Jeanne! Day 47 I dont even remember what was going on. I guess that is kind of a blessing, it means nothing bad happened. Right? Day 48 Jerry's birthday!! He is two years older than me. Not really but the math works out until March. I'm grateful to be able to laugh and kid around with such a funny husband. He had a rough day with work but over all he said it was a good day.  Day 49 Weird day at work. A few of my meetings for virtual classes were cancelled so it was a lot of waiting around for the student to contact me or wait for the next class. I am doing an online course though the district and I was able to knock out a few of the "courses". So I'm grateful for the time to develop my professional skills.  Alright..whew...caught up. Maybe I need to tie a sting around my finger to remind me to post. 😏

Day 45  Happy Valentine's day! Today I'm thankful nfor a husband who is also my best friend and partner. I can't imagine a day without him. Day 46 Happy President's day. Our district was closed today so I go to rest and relax. Did some gaming. Had a lunch that takes longer than a work day lunch period. It was nice. I'm grateful for holidays. 

We are really trying to stay safe and COVID-19 free. We only go out for doctor appointments, and work. Work is rare though as we both work from home. Jerry has to go in from time to time and I usually have to go in to sign my time sheets. So today I'm thankful for grocery delivery. We use both Instacart and Shipt. Depends on the store. 

Day 42 I'm grateful for food delivery services. I didn't feel like cooking so, we had La Nopalera for dinner and it was yummy. Day 43 I ordered another bird feeder to add to our collection. We are really enjoying watching the birds and squirrels compete for peanuts. I didn't know Bluejays liked peanuts. So I'm thankful we found this new little hobby to keep us entertained. 

Today I'm grateful.for....ya know...this is tough today. Don't get me wrong, there is a lot of good I'm my life but today I feel off. ... And I feel that it's okay to not be okay from time to time.  it's spaghetti night.... So I'm thankful for yummy pasta. There....see.... Did it!

Today I'm grateful for quick and tasty recipes. it's Taco Tuesday so I made taco soup.with ground pork, diced onions,  a can of fire roasted tomatoes, a can of corn, a can of black beans,  and a packet of gluten free taco seasoning. After browning the meat, you add everything and heat. I also added a can full of water.