Saturday, March 25, 2023
Van Gogh experience...
Thursday, March 23, 2023
Wednesday, March 22, 2023
Last night I lost my diamond engagement ring. Two months to the day that Jerry left the house. I'm trying not to let myself read too much into that. It will turn up. It is in the bedroom...somewhere.
Monday, March 20, 2023
Sunday, March 19, 2023
Friday, March 17, 2023
Am I wrong?
everything and nothing ..
Thursday, March 16, 2023
Monday, March 13, 2023
Monday of Birthday week....
It was a great weekend. I really like my new car. It's very comfy. Feels very Jeanne :)
Jerry stopped by last night after his week in Las Vegas. Honestly, I don't know why. He said he wanted to see me, but it was late (8:30pm), although I made him spaghetti. He would have been better off going home and resting. However, he did mention that he had to eat if I needed another excuse other than him wanting to see me. I need to trust his intentions right now. I need to work on that. Trust....such a crazy concept.
I had an eye appointment this morning. My eyes are less bothersome than in previous appointments. I had moved it from earlier this month because I didn't want to take time off work. I should stop doing that and just go to them when I schedule. Life is too short to worry about pissing off my employer.
It's my birthday week. I tried to get some Kilwin's ice cream over the weekend, but St. Augustine was crazy, and after that fiasco, I didn't feel like going to the town center.
Tomorrow we leave for our "Separate Room Vacation" which should be interesting. I'm nervous. I'll probably ask my therapist today about tools that might help.
Friday, March 10, 2023
Tuesday, March 7, 2023
Tuesday is my least favorite day of the week. It's in there, taking up space.
I go back to the doctor to check up on my shoulder. It's doing well. I get tired and stiff if I do too much, but I haven't followed the "range of motion" guidelines. (Oopsie)
After my appointment, I'm supposed to have dinner with Jerry. He is leaving for Vegas tomorrow, and I won't see him until we go on our trip together. I doubt I'll hear from him this week. I need to remember to refrain from making up stories about why he isn't contacting me. This is going to be hard. Thankfully, I have a therapy session on Monday that will help me out.
*sigh* I never knew I was so damaged until he messed up.
Monday, March 6, 2023
Mondays are always full of hope. A new week. A chance to jump in with both feet and just go.
My therapist is on vacation this week, so I have no sessions. I'm sad because I'm learning how to be a good citizen of the world. Let's face it, we can all use a person to use as a sounding board, especially one that doesn't judge you or has no emotional attachment to you.
I have booked a little trip to some springs for spring break. Jerry is traveling with me, although we have separate rooms. It will be nice to be out of town. I'm hoping it goes well. The separate rooms will allow both of us a break from each other.
He goes to Vegas this week, so I probably won't hear from him very much.
Things I'm working on:
- Not looking for motivation
- Noting the positives and not just the negatives
- stoping the "stories" from invading my brain
- living in the now
Thursday, March 2, 2023
Wednesday, March 1, 2023
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