Being Jeanne...

Two nights ago I put it all lit there. It was the first time I said that his vague language was giving me doubts and I needed direct, clear, verbage! While we didn't get much sleep because we were talking I feel so much better about us! 

If I feel like I'm in the way then tell me I'm not in the way. Don't just hop and puff and then I won't go away and now I just don't want to fucking even see your fucking face. I just want you to fucking go away

Every time you randomly Snapchat me, I worry that the only reason one on Snapchat was to do something else and then you sent me a message because he felt it was obligated. I do not want to feel like an obligation I want to feel like hey, I think this would be fun to send Jeanne and oh yeah, here are my friends to you, but the fact that we're not each other's best friends says a lot. I  I know I really shouldn't worry about it because you do come home and are loving and adoring to me so... 

I'm no longer your best friend. Which means you've replaced me....AGAIN.  I don't even know how to explain this to you without you blowing a gasket. "I'll just delete Snapchat" I doubt you would and what does that even do other than make you resent me.  I don't know what to do. 🙁

Feel like I'm slipping into the friend zone. I'd like more but I don't toose my best friend. So what do I do.... 

Fastest date ever every had egg feeders with you on your phone smiling an GF then stumbling to tell me what you were looking at... I'm triggered. Don't bolt. Water your garden....  I fucking hate gardening. 

I told myself this morning that you answer a lot of people at work via text messages and that you are probably tired of texting so I'm going to take that off your plate.  Life is too short to be mad about something I can't control. Need to adopt the IDGAF attitude about that and remember that I love you. 

 I guess I know where I rate.  I don't message you because I'm in a meeting and over an hour late getting home.  You don't even question it.   Not feeling the love....

I'm sure if I was one of your little bimbo chicks online that you were masturbating to, you'd be answering her right fucking away. Instead you just leave me on read all the fucking time!  Especially because I know it goes to your watch and I know that works because the other day when I texted you, you looked at your watch because you got a notification. So you ignoring me just means that I am not a priority and it's very clear even though you're helpful and good to me and you're always touching me as you say.  Maybe I'm just fucking ridiculous. Maybe this is exactly what I deserve. Fuck no it's not!!!  Update: 8:45 So apparently he did text me. I didn't get the notification.. weird.  So not a fucker...that would be me 🫤