Being Jeanne...

Over all a good relaxing week. I barely thought about work. I only had a few days where I didn't trust the relationship.... I need to ask how to get past that. I know "my narratives" are not facts but they feel real. 

So then... You go into Snapchat but don't even look at my public story because you are only looking for your hookups 🫤

Just about the time I feel secure his score jumps. I hate that I look. I hate that I don't trust.... I wanna go home right now and escape this feeling.

That was an over reaction in my opinion. Just go back to your boob girls and leave me the fuck alone!!!!  Oh by the way my head is fine where the dish fell on top of it. Thank you so much for only worrying about picking up the dish and not my safety. You know what fuck you!!! 

So keep climbing that score while I get "left on read." I know rationally that shouldn't hurt, but it does... 

I just don't feel like he is 100% on board. I feel like he is ok intentionally locking his phone, tilting it away from me, and leaving the room to use his phone. Red fucking flags IMO

I hate the days I get triggered. Come in. Start talking to me and immediately put focus on your phone. Notification galore ... Snapchat score still climbing. I don't like being this person.