Google photos started a new feature a few months back where they show you pictures from your past. Four years ago today, I had a "Porch Pop-up" for my Lularoe business. I was cute and thinner, and I thought happy. But I think it was that day that I figured out that it wasn't going to be for me. I think I had a few sales, but nothing, like I thought, should have been happening. Needless to say, I stuck it out for a few more months, trying to deny the fact that it wasn't fun and it was a whole lot of work. It wasn't until November of that year that I stopped selling. What I didn't know at the time was that the reason I was losing so much weight and loving my new body in these, what I thought were cute outfits, was that I had cancer. Cancer was the reason for my weight loss. So what am I thankful/grateful for on reflecting on this memory? That I took a chance. I stepped out of my comfort zone to try something. I didn't think I would fail as much as I did but I'm a one-job kind of woman. I don't know how people do all the side hustles.
Now I'm the heaviest I've ever been and I feel like a failure for that. I'm counting calories again. I hate it., But it keeps me in check. It's funny because that's what I was doing when I lost all that weight while having cancer. *shrug* Pray for me readers....I think I need it.