The waiting....

I had my mammogram on 11/11. In years past, there have been some abnormal pictures, and I always had to go back and have my left breast reimaged and an ultrasound. Well, not last year. Last year they didn't see it. The problem area has always been in the inner quadrant. This year....it's on the outer. I have no idea what this means, but I must wait nearly a month before getting that second scan and ultrasound. I'm hoping my luck hasn't run out.  

December 15th is when I go back. It was their first available slot. I have my annual doctor's appointment and an endocrine checkup on the 13th, which has been set for the past 3 months. I have time off available for that appointment, but not for the 15th. Not that is the most important thing about all this. Money means nothing if you aren't healthy. Well...I mean, you need money to pay for healthcare. It sucks there is no universal health care here in the United States. Rambling...I am worried. I don't know why.  

Actually, I know exactly why. The last time I lost weight so quickly was when I was diagnosed with Kidney Cancer. I'm on Mounjaro for type 2 diabetes, and it's helping my A1C, and of course, the weight is coming down quickly. I've lost around fifty pounds since the summer. So now I'm worried that I have a tumor in my breast, and that's why I'm losing weight, and it's not the Mounjaro. I'm a worrier.  I have a problem, but I'm sure you can see the correlation. 

So yeah....I have two weeks plus time for them to look at the scans to worry.  I know positivity is vital, and I'm trying.  I really am.  It's tough.  I got super lucky with my Kidney cancer.  They removed the kidney, and my scans have been clear since. Ok...confession...I didn't get scans this year. *sigh* Isn't the doctor supposed to call about that stuff? So now I'm overwhelmed again.