Day 111 & 112

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 111: Not a good day.  Work is wearing on me.  I'm feeling confined even though I really don't want to go anywhere.  I'm feeling worn out as well.  So what do I have to be grateful for.  I am grateful for having these feelings.  It's okay not to be okay.  It's the sad days that balance out the joy that comes from most days.  

112:  I'm still feeling "meh."  A co-worker's mother passed away yesterday.  She had been battling Congestive Heart Failure for a while now.  I feel for my co-worker.  Losing a parent is hard.  That Mother/Daughter relationship is a special bond (well, for me it was) and not having mom around can be rough.  I'm grateful to have gone through that experience though.  Jerry and I lost all our parents within 18 months.  One after another.  I don't know how we did it, but we did.  We have use some dark humor to ease some of the pain.  Lots of "your momma" jokes and if I see a monkey or a gorilla saying "I miss my dad.."  I'm thankful that I can remember them like that on a daily basis. 

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