marriage...

It takes work to keep a marriage alive and thriving. And some days you just don't feel like making that work... 

I'm in that phase right now. I just want to exist and it kind of sucks because I don't really like the way my marriage is going right now. It's not bad by any means. It's just kind of bland, and part of it is my fault because I am not leaning into it. I am not taking the time to initiate intimacy. I am not taking the time to initiate much lately. So yeah, a little of it's on me, and I don't seem to be getting any pushback, so yeah...

That being said, I am going to try to reach out and have some physical contact and things of that nature because I do know that it's important in a marriage to reach out. I just don't know when LOL... I have nine more wake-ups until summer break. And might just hold off until then. Weekends are better. Weekdays not so much. So yeah, marriages are work. Don't forget it.