help

I am still having a hard time trusting him. Our communication during the day is like it was in February and March. Very transactional. I'm probably exaggerating. I know that I am. I'm just in a low moment right now, but you should know that I require reassurance. You know I'm an anxious preoccupied attachment style person. You know that words of affirmation and quality time are my top two love languages and yet it's like you don't even know me. I know that your top one is active service and I fucking do everything and I'm starting to fucking resent it.  

Okay, deep breath... Maybe I don't do everything but I feel like I'm in charge of making sure that we have plans and I'm done. I'm not Julie McCoy. I'm not your cruise director..I'm Jeanne! 

Oh and the intimacy thing... Yeah where the fuck is that?