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hmm...I wonder if I'm ready...

Okay so Jerry is starting to prepare the back bedroom for his move-in. The bed is coming tomorrow. The headboard came today. The only way I knew about that is because I walked into that back room and saw there. Did he tell me no so I call him said wow! Your headboard looks really great and all I heard was negative, negative, negative, negative negative. Well what the fuck dude if you're not happy with it if you fucked it up that's on you. I don't need your negative Nancy shit in this house. Argh! I don't know if I am ready for him being in my space. Already. Little weird things are happening. The carport camera mysteriously was unplugged when I came home today. Like what the actual fuck because it was on when the dudes were here looking for his plug-in for his electric Mustang. And even after they left it was still working. But mysteriously it was unplugged. I don't get it. I didn't see anyone over there but there's only one person that could have done that. And I don't get why. Maybe it was an accident. Maybe he was just sticking around with it and didn't know I don't know. I'm sure as hell not going to bring it up with him and he's sure as he'll not going to read my blog so he'll never know that I'm pissed. 

The other thing is I don't know I just don't know why the fuck do I care what he fucking thinks because he obviously doesn't give a fuck about me. He says oh I want to come over but what the fuck you really don't. You don't talk to me during the day. You don't flirt with me. You don't do crap. All you do is anything that benefits your fucking life well. You know what I am not going to give into your acts of service crap because you don't give into my words of affirmation. So fuck you fuck that. Fuck it all until I see you doing some work I'm not putting out the effort. 

Holy crap. I don't know if I mean any of that but it sure as hell felt good to say. But I'm not going to work harder than somebody else. I just said that to the kids at school. Why should I work harder on something that doesn't really benefit me? So right now I am all about Jeannie because that's really the only thing I can control. 

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